#gymgay

I'm really into my fitness. It's something I don't think I could live without. Keeping my body fit gives me more confidence socially and makes me look and feel healthier. I'm not gonna lie though, of course the reason I go to the gym is to have a sexy body, so I can look like the guys I find so attractive. In many ways, I think this way of thinking is reflected in the gay world. A lot of gay guys try to look like the type of guy they find attractive. It's why I think a lot of gay couples, particularly men, look similar in build, height, look etc. To be attractive to that person, you have to be in their league, and a way of doing this is by trying to emulate that particularly attractive trait. In a physical sense, I definitely find muscle attractive. It's why I go to the gym so regularly, so I can gain that muscle, feel happier with what I see in the mirror, and look hotter to that certain handsome guy. Maybe the way of thinking I've just described is mind numbingly shallow, but it's a mind set I can't help but be locked into.

So I go to the gym about 5 times a week, 6 if I'm feeling really motivated. Something I've noticed while I'm at the gym is the way some guys avoid me. At first I thought it was just my paranoia, but it happens too often for it to be just my imagination. The guys that seem to avoid me, are the macho looking guys. When I say avoid me, that doesn't mean I'm walking up to them trying to socialise. What happens is I go to a piece of equipment, sit down at it, and in a matter of seconds, that guy near my equipment, gets up and moves away pretty much immediately. Are they sensing my gayness? Do they really think I'm interested or trying to come onto them? Now of course, I'm only human, I may have the occasional glance to see who's in the room, and I may go for another couple of glances if a guy is particularly beaut, but I don't stare intensely or longingly, so why are people so on guard?

In reflection, maybe it's just my insecurities messing with my head. Maybe I'm just overthinking yet again. I don't know but it does make me wonder if I'm the only #gymgay who's felt this way? I'm going to try and rise above it, and put it to the back of my mind, but if it happens again too often, I can't help but hold my hands and say “sorry man, can't help it, I'm gay”.